Unconditional

Here I am.. blogging from the Percy Baxter Centre at the library. That translates to "I am slacking at the "online centre" of the place filled with books which is suppose to make me study like mad."

Umm.. I'm just taking a break from studies (Right. That's a nice way of putting it right Helen?). Well, from my assignment really. :D Almost there, almost done (And that took you like how long? A month?!). About another hour or so should be done liaw.. (More like another night -.-") Hehehe.. Err.. but then again, there are two other assignments (So why the hell are you still blogging?).

Note the title : Unconditional.

What in the whole wide watermelon world does that mean? I'm thinking more from a giving perspective hor.. although I most welcome "unconditional taking/receiving" as well.. Hehe.. but that's not the moral of our story today.

So, unconditional giving. Give what? Good question.

Can be anything lah. Whatever you can think of..

The abstract : Love, time, patience, friendship, commitment.. etc
The practical : A place to stay, borrowing stuff.. sharing stuff.. all that.. and of course MONEY! :P

Don't wanna go on about the other categories e.g. Most common, Most desired and all that ojibala (Translate : This means "everything random" in crazy Malaysian language)..

I guess what I wanna point out is, it's hard to give unconditionally. Damn hard that sometimes people even start out that way, and end up wanting something out of it. What can I say? It's human nature. You look left and right at the people all around you. Then look at yourself. How many different times have you started off something with passion, something with heart and all genuine-ness and end up taking something back anyways?

Say for friendship. At a more surface and simplistic way of looking at it. We would do anything for our friends! And you know what? Why are we willing to do that? Coz some way or the other we do gain a lot out of it too.. When you give your seat to the nice old lady in the tram. What did you gain? Nothing? WRONG!

You got the satisfaction and warm feeling of
1) Doing a good deed.
2) Bringing out the good stuff in you.
3) Having someone acknowledge your thoughtfulness when they smile at you.

The thing to note here is, if what we gain is not SOLID, like.. objects or something which can be seen easily, it's easy to not feel it. Why? Coz we are unappreciative creatures. We're stingy with extending praises (but very generous with criticism), we get jealous easily, we have wants which go beyond the sky. But don't worry, my point here is not to scrutinize and make everyone feel bad about being human. From a practical POV, you see that parent-sibling, friendships, any kind of relationship, you do actually gain. If not, it won't work. Don't deny it. Think carefully before you declare "Oh, hell's no. I'm not as selfish as all that. What I give and do is unconditional."

It's OK to be like that. It's human :) With that being said, appreciate those around you. Show them you care once in a while. :)

*Note to self :
"Hmmm.. seems like the "It's ok to be selfish" part is mostly what you wanna tell yourself eh?" :P

"Yea.. how did you figure that out?"

"Like duh, you have to stop killing yourself over something so naturalistic and HUMAN sometime in the future you know."

"FINE!"

-.-"