Sleepless

Dear Blog,

I forgot when was the last time I couldn't sleep. Was it the day before I was due at my first placement? That was about 4 months ago.

I am tired. My eyelids are heavy, the outer rims of my eyes feel like they've been nailed into the sides of my nose. It's my head you see. It won't stop thinking.

Family.

Friends.

My upcoming interview. WTF possessed me into writing I could speak Cantonese?!?!

My schoolwork.

My health.

My future.

I'm not sure writing is helping this time. I guess I won't know until I finish.


*Inserts break. Serious conversation with friend.*


Sigh.

I want to type many self-depricating thoughts here. Just spent the last half hour willing myself not to. They're stuck in my head though.

What am I going to do?

What am I going to do?

What am I going to do?

Sigh.

STOP. STOP. STOP.

STOP.

You don't know it do you? You have no answers for me? No?

STOP.