I try..

I try to stay up
and sleep off my mornings,
I want to like man's best friend
but I've been bitten
once.

I try to listen
to melodies that put me to sleep,
While I lay here
swimming in promises,
drowning.

I try to answer
the mysteries of your being
while searching
for that woman,
still a girl.

I want to be myself
but fear you'd see

me

this monster
underneath the lies.