Deflated

For a sympathetic person I can be very insensitive at times and this is one of those times. How could I be so careless?

Feeling very guilty now. I'd forgotten about the people who have cried today. Maybe because I did not under the circumstances, but then again my SPM results did not matter much to me. It was my ticket to anywhere. It was just there, perhaps as a reminder to work harder, but otherwise it was just a piece of paper tucked under my history.

I know no matter what is said right now, "Cheer up~" or "You did your best" is pretty much a formality coz I know the feeling of where nothing good can possibly come out of this. I can't even smash that many guitars this time. =/

After being "high" all day I've finally hit a low. It always happens. I just didn't expect to be reminded of it in such a way I did not even realize how tactless I was being.

I remember at the end of Form 3 when we got our PMR results. Boy, the mixture of feelings inside was just too intense to take in in that one day. I remember smiling and consoling the people who were crying the whole day and then going back home, and finally just breaking down in the room all by myself. I remember when Mom came into the room and said to me, "What are you crying for?" She must've thought I was nuts.

Which leads me to this.. I'm sorry I'd forgotten how it feels to see people hurt while you're elated. It's deflating.